Knitted Knockers

This week I received the most delightful pair of ‘knitted knockers’ in the post. As a one-breasted woman I like to wear a prosthesis every now and then, but the silicon ones the hospital provided me with irritate my skin. It was only recently put to my attention that the charity provide bespoke soft cotton ones free of charge to women who have had mastectomies or lumpectomies,“made with love and filled with hope”.

I put in an order and within 3 weeks received these beautiful boobs, knitted specially for me by another woman. The connection between women over boobs is very powerful. These knitted specimen say so much more than pages of words could do. I’m very moved and grateful.

Like many creative processes, knitting not only requires us to learn and repeat basic skills, but also to be curious and explore variations on those `stitches’. “There are two kinds of women: those who knit and those who unravel…” (Stephanie Danler – the Paris Review Sept 8, 2015). Knitting becomes a metaphor for life itself ; We can live to connect to the other, or to unravel. Sometimes the unravelled is fixable. Sometimes not. “I knit socks because in each and every stitch, every pattern, every turn there is a lesson. Or a memory. Just like life”.(

And according to the Mayo Clinic, seniors who engage in knitting seem 30-50% less likely to have a ‘mild cognitive impairment’ than those who don’t.

Many lactation consultants still use knitted breasts as visual aids. In 2010 the Somerset Mothers’ Union was commissioned by the NHS to knit fake breasts to be handed to health visitors and community nurses, to help new mums learn techniques and how to cope with breast feeding complaints. The Lactation Consultants of Great Britain have ‘Knitted Breast The Pattern’ available on their website for downloading.

The ladies volunteering for  “Life For African Mothers” (Making Birth safer in sub-saharan Africa) make midwifery training sets which comprise not only of knitted breasts but also knitted placentas and wombs… !  Patterns anyone ? (

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Nippled Collection memoir2

I grew up in Holland in the sixties without central heating, when on early winter mornings frosty lacework would grace the single glazed windows. Me and my siblings had to entertain ourselves in the downstairs living room until my mother would wake up and light the coal fire.

On one such crisp cold morning, I left the younger ones playing their games and decided to make a collage. I loved making things. Wrapped in a thick terry cloth bathrobe and armed with scissors and a large pot of glue I attacked a pile of old magazines. Before long this eight-year-old girl becamemesmerized by the bare breasts she found in one of them. I still don’t really understand why my strictly protestant parents who had zero tolerance towards sex before marriage allowed such a magazine within reach of their kids, but I cut out any breast I could find and started organizing my nippled collection into a beautiful spiral.

So engrossed in my quest, I hadn’t heard my mum coming down… A red glow took hold of my cheeks when she asked “What are YOU doing…?” I sensed a mix of curiosity and disapproval in her voice. “SILLY girl….”. While she was rakingthe ashes from the fire, I slipped behind her, scrunching up the unfinished and suddenly so highly embarrassing piece of work with my cold fingers. I stuffed the crumpled remains deep down in the small bin next to the harmonium, safely hidden under the rubbish of previous days.

I didn’t dare look my mum in the eyes at breakfast that morning and prayed she wouldn’t tell my dad. I was relieved when the clock’s big arm reached quarter past eight, time to get my coat and escape to school. On my way out it was with sadness I noticed that the accumulating heat of the coal fire was melting away the last ‘ice flowers’ on the windows.

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Unlike any other organ, the breast does most of its development well after birth, having to fully build itself from scratch during puberty. And then, if a woman is pregnant, the breast constructs and deconstructs again under the influence of pregnancy hormones, when the glands grow milk-producing structures.

Due to this sensitivity to hormonal change, breasts are an easy ‘target’ for environmental toxins and chemical compounds, which often imitate hormones such as oestrogen.

After I was diagnosed with an oestrogen receptive breast cancer and had a mastectomy, I wanted to make a positive change to my lifestyle and started looking into preventative health. I realised that a healthy diet would be a good first step. But nutritional information is a minefield of contradictions and it took me a lot of research and confidence to decide what works for me.

Reports on possible links between dairy consumption and breast cancer contradict each other, but I understood that hormones found in full milk fat could be connected with the role that oestrogen can play in the development and reoccurrence of breast cancer.

I also learnt that although milk is the ideal food for infants, as people get older many lose their ability to digest it fully and dairy can cause our bodies to become acidified.

Nobel Laureate Otto Warburg already demonstrated in the 1930s that alkalised bodies are healthy oxygenated bodies, opposed to acidic bodies, which are prone to degeneration and oxygen deprivation (which can contribute to the promotion of diseases such as cancer).

To achieve an optimal, more alkaline environment, I decided to cut out dairy and wheat and stick to a mainly plant based diet with some fish. I prefer to take my dietary fat from sources like avocados and olive oil rather than from milk.

The Thai artist Pinaree Sanpitak’s approach to food is much more poetic and light hearted than mine though; With her Breast Stupa Cookery project (2005-ongoing) Sanpitak simply asks people all over the world to use the breast stupa shaped cooking moulds made in cast aluminium and glazed terracotta to produce edible creations. ‘Food becomes the medium of connection and hopefully can mend and blur all boundaries’. (see photos above)

I learnt a lot about food at the Breast Cancer Haven, which provides free complementary therapies including Nutritional Therapy for anyone affected by breast cancer and runs Healthy Fast Food Workshops.

The Hello Beautiful Foundation is a UK based Cancer prevention charity which highlights the benefits of living a healthy Non-Toxic Lifestyle, an experience that starts with mindfulness and extends into nutrition and social responsibility.







Body Image


Doctor Henri de Mondeville wrote in his Cyrurgia (1306-1320) ; “Some women, unable or unwilling to resort to a surgeon, or not wanting to reveal their indecency, make in their chemises two sacks proportioned to their breasts, but shallow, and they put them on every morning, and compress them as much as they can with a suitable bandage. Others, like the women of Montpellier, compress them with tight tunics and laces…”

As the common medieval ideal of female beauty was pert, modestly sized breasts, (a slim body and a rounded belly), some women with larger breasts would bind them to reduce their size as not to be judged as ‘indecent’ as de Mondeville puts it… So already 700 years ago women felt pressurised into altering their body to conform to an idealised image.

And of course perceptions regarding the ideal female body and breast keep changing as well ;

The pert, apple shaped breast ideal of the late Medieval – Renaissance times (1300-1600 AD) changed into a more rounded and voluptuous one in Baroque times (1600-1750 AD), expressing wealth and status.

The Venus of Willendorf, a small limestone female figurine ( 25,000BC) found in 1908 in  Austria, depicts a voluptuous body with curved hips and large breasts, idealising the female figure and suggesting a strong connection to fertility.  In contrast,  but following in this Neolithic tradition, the later marble figurines from the Cyclades, Greece (3300-1100 BC) are much more elongated and angular, with small sculpted undulations for breasts.

I was intrigued when I found the above photo ; Black Rapport Day by The Neo-Naturists. This performance art group, founded in 1981, sat outside mainstream culture  and used the body as their canvas. The Neo-Naturists performances were very much body positive ; the body was celebrated instead of shaped to conform. (Studio Voltaire, London, Neo-Naturists exhibition 2016)

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Milk and lactation are incredibly ancient; the origins may stretch  back as far as 300 million years.

Scientist now know that lactation evolved from the immune system, and it’s primary function was not nutrition but protection.

The immunological benefits of breast milk were recently beautifully illustrated to me by my neighbour Dan; When in Macedonia for work, he had developed a small stye infection on top of his eyelid. Whilst discussing with a male colleague where to find appropriate medication, a female colleague overhearing the conversation noted; “don’t worry, my sister is breastfeeding”… Dan found himself blushing, imagining the sister’s bare breast, and only after further explanation understood that a squirt of breast milk was believed to have the appropriate antibacterial properties to cure his stye.

Did you know that there are 292 Human Breast Milk Banks in the world, 17 of which are in the UK and 200 in Brazil, which has been associated with a significant drop in child mortality rates.

There are also Milk Banks for research, repositories of human- or animal milk samples. One of these animal milk banks is based at the Smithsonian’s National Zoo in the USA, to study the evolutionary history of different species’ milks, which can offer clues to how human milk evolved. (Catherine Zuckerman – National Geographic Jan 2019)

Photo ; Bettina Hubby – Thanks for the mammaries

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Architecture of the Breast


When assessing Mammographic breast imagery, one of the things consultants look at is “architectural distortion”.

At BBook we are curious to explore the “Architecture of the Breast” and are working on a series of events and activities related to this topic. (detailed information will follow soon)

Human beings measure themselves in relation to the world around them. And architects shape the world around us in relation to the body’s dimensions.

When an architect surveys a site or building (through drawing, photography or model-making), this doesn’t only provide an insight and understanding in a metric sense, it also connects to cultural and historical dimensions and the human experience.

We are interested in surveying the contemporary human body, in particular
 the breast, to address issues society still struggles to accept, such as the asymmetry and lopsidedness of post lumpectomy and mastectomy chests and gender fluid and gender reassigned chests.

We will be inviting people to survey their own chest through drawing or any other suitable means, not only to understand and communicate its form, proportion, structure, symmetry, texture and materiality but also to engage with the politics and emotions surrounding the subject.

By sharing the resulting collection of surveys we aim to challenge conventional perceptions of the stereotypical body image and to promote diversity, inclusiveness and awareness.

Image above; Drawing I made of my friend Nel’s chest. In order to deal with post-traumatic swelling and lymphedema after a double mastectomy, she received Manual Lymphatic Drainage treatment. Quoting Nel ; “the kinesiology tape used, rivals anything Madonna did on tour!”

Anna Versteeg 2019


After my mastectomy, my friend Anne Lydiat referred to me as an Amazon.

The myth surrounding Amazons originates from Greek Mythology, referring to an ancient legendary nation of female warriors.

The etymology of the Greek variant “Amazon” means “a” without and “mazos” breast ; “without a breast.” The Greek historian Strabo (63BC) states that the right breasts of all Amazons were cut off or seared, so that they could more easily use their right arm for throwing the javelin and using the bow & arrow.

Anne gave me a beautiful book; “When women were birds” by American author, conservationist, and activist Terry Tempest Williams, in which Tempest notes that she belongs to “a Clan of One-breasted Women”. Her mother, grandmothers and six aunts all had mastectomies… ”this image allowed me to see the women in my family as warriors, not victims of breast cancer…”.

Perfection lost
Conquering life
With a lopsided

From the poem “Two” by Anna Versteeg 2010

Image above ; Ancient Roman mosaic ; Amazon warrior armed with labrys, engaged in combat with a hippeus, is seized by her Phrygian cap; 4th century AD. From Daphne, a suburb of Antioch on the Orontes ( modern Antakyain southern Turkey), now installed in the Denon Wing of the Louvre, Paris.




When, after 23 years together, I got married in 2017,
we asked our guests to bring 10x10cm cakes, which were assembled on tiers to make our wedding cake. My friend Nel, who had a double mastectomy herself, contributed these two ‘breasts’… humour is priceless and provides perspective …

“Being playful about important issues is hard work”

(Richard Dedomenici)



FASHION…what do you wear when you have only one breast…?
For the first summer holiday after my mastectomy ( 2009) I asked my friend Maria to make me a new MONOKINI from two of my old bikini’s ( see above pictures).

Whilst researching for this journal, I found out about Monokini 2.0 (2014), a swimwear collection designed by a group of Finnish fashion designers, modeled by women who have gone through breast cancer and photographed by artists. This brillaint art project  takes a stand on western commercial culture’s narrow idea of women’s ideal appearance and strives to expand the idea of what is considered to be beautiful in the female body. The project emphasizes that beauty lies in ones confidence and community’s acceptance rather than in “the perfect body”. The creative leaders are artists Katriina Haikala and Vilma Metteri (art duo Tärähtäneet ämmät / Shaken-not-blurred). The original idea is by Elina Halttunen, the woman with one tit. (

Wax votive



Ever since I first saw examples of anatomical votives,
I was attracted to the aesthetics of these collections of objects left at church altars and intrigued by the concept.

After I had a mastectomy, I started looking out for breast shaped votives.
This wax specimen from Portugal was given to me by friends…Fatima’s Breast.